12th Birthday Reflection

It’s 12 years later at 9:13 and 9:15 exact my daughters came into the world. At 24 weeks and 2 days gestation they came out crying like full term babies. Nothing could have prepared me for this journey. Yet, I surrendered to love and allowed God to guide my motherhood journey.

After a rough first week I lost my youngest daughter, Saturia. She was so small, fighting to breathe, battling jaundice while growing. At 1lb, 1 oz her frail frame was too small to continue her journey. I think about her everyday. I still remember seeing her for the first time, holding her tiny feet. I remember the last time I held her, looking at this perfectly formed baby I had to let go.

Moving forward, I chose to move in gratitude. It’s easy to see the bad, the struggle, and highlight the challenges. I decided to be focused on gratitude, to stretch myself and reflect often on how I want to approach motherhood. I connected with others who help me be the best mom and medical advocate I can be.

I could go on for days about the community that showed up for us. My father continues to hold me and pour love into my daughter. My big sisters pray for us and give wisdom to me. My younger sister show up at the right time as support for us. My brothers who come in to provide an protect us . Friends and family who visit us while we were in the hospital. Friends who came to make me laugh and ensure we were alright. I am grateful for the countless doctors, nurses, tech’s and medical staff who supported Sophia abs helped her for the past 12 years.

I thank every teacher and school staff member who helped mold my child into the bubbly confident social young lady you see today. I pray for her teachers both current and past like they are my family because she could not make it here without them. Sophia is such a fortunate child to have been with you and I personally thank you. Thank you for the time, love and energy poured into her.

Lastly, I thank Sophia. She changed my life completely. Every day I grow with her. Because of her I know miracles happen daily. I’ve seen her overcome adversity and defy odds against her. I have been able to comfort her during her most challenging days. I enjoy having the opportunity to celebrate with her. I love her fighting spirit that has shown me anything is possible.

My prayer is for me to be able to support her as she thrives and grow. I hope to give her more joyous experiences. I look forward to traveling the world with Sophia, more laughter and celebrations, and dance parties! God bless you and keep you baby girl, mommy loves you so much ❤️

Sophia at birth 08/20/2009

7 thoughts on “12th Birthday Reflection

  1. As I always say, Sophia had to be born, and YOU had to be her mother. I don’t know a better duo. I can’t imagine anyone giving her the love and support you do. She is beyond blessed to have you. God makes no mistakes. Sophie, your smile makes me melt EVERYTIME. You are filled with A love most dont know. As you grow it’s beautiful to see you mature. Your determination is unmatched. Aunty and your cousins love you. We are in your corner forever 🤎

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  2. You are an amazing mother, sister, and woman. The relationship you share with my niece, as well as the way you parent her, is incredible. I just wanted to let you know that you’re doing fantastic. We thank God for Sophie and hope that God will continue to keep a jealous eye on her.

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  3. You are an amazing mother, sister, and woman. The relationship you share with my niece, as well as the way you parent her, is incredible. I just wanted to let you know that you’re doing fantastic. We thank God for Sophia and pray that God will continue to keep a jealous eye on her.

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