Open To New Endings

Recently I had to do an evaluation for Sophia’s equipment. She’s grown a lot in the past year and her wheelchair especially is getting tight. For most of her short distance walking we hold hands and when going on longer walks, like around the park, we use her walker.  Especially for transportation in the morning …

Finding Joy: Part 2

Working on the growth and understanding of myself can be an elusive path. I try to reflect and document as much as I can. This has allowed me to be reflective, see my growth, acknowledge where I have shortcomings. I have been growing my joy in big ways but working on ways to grow my …

Overload

It’s easy to distinguish people as capable and incapable based on how they handle situations. Being a person who is considered capable of overcome challenging situations has some perks, but for this virtue a grave shadow lingers.  Just because someone is considered capable, does this meant they are required to carry more? For me it …

12th Birthday Reflection

It’s 12 years later at 9:13 and 9:15 exact my daughters came into the world. At 24 weeks and 2 days gestation they came out crying like full term babies. Nothing could have prepared me for this journey. Yet, I surrendered to love and allowed God to guide my motherhood journey. After a rough first …

The Gift of Moving Forward

As the year 2021 unfolds so does experiences that lead me to stretch beyond what I knew I was capable of. The beauty in this moment is I am more ready than I thought I was. I guess the perk of always being ready for change in life has finally created an ease when change …

The Gift of Hearing “NO”

Watercolor Illustration by Ellen Cappard copyright 2021. I recently sat down and developed an illustrative portfolio. It was an accomplishment for me as I'm transitioning to work independently. Having this time during the COVID crisis and navigating the best way to support my child and myself can be tricky. I know for sure it’s the …

Fall Declutter

Its November and fall is in full swing. You see all the signs of this season around; the fallen leaves, bare trees, chilled air, and pumpkin everything. Seeing nature clear the leaves daily inspired me to look at my own life. I carry so much from day to day, season to season, with little regard …

Finding Joy: Part 1

Is it bad that I’ve been experiencing joy in the middle of the pandemic? I have been slowing down, taking small steps through each day, and laughing a lot more. Yes, I know it may feel out of place, but I think that’s what keeps me hopeful during this tumultuous time. Most people understand joy …

Growing Courage

Maya Angelou once said, “Courage is the most important of all the virtues, because without courage you can't practice any other virtue consistently. You can practice any virtue erratically, but nothing consistently without courage.” This resonates with me and my journey as creative who is also a mother. There are days where the consistency required to do the work …

A New Normal

I can’t find the words to describe the pressures of being responsible for my child’s care, safety, and happiness. It flips from teaching her a new song to correcting her feet as we walk to the park, to completing exercises for OT at the dinner table all in what is a seamless day. I am …